So it's Monday, Memorial Day, and life should return to normal tomorrow. I have to mention just how many people (and the media) take for granted what this weekend is all about--remembering why this is a holiday weekend. It's to remember and honor our veterans past and present. If it wasn't for their courage and bravery, we would not have the freedoms and the country we have today. It's not about good sales, having an extra few days off of work to drink and stuff ourselves full of food at bbqs with friends, family, and neighbors (unless you're actually celebrating our veterans), and it's not the "unofficial start of summer." Okay. Rant over.
So I'm sitting here, still trying to get comfortable, swollen up like the Michelin Man, waiting for my skin to explode, in pain, and melting. And trying to keep my growing anxiety under control. I honestly haven't the slightest clue what I'm going to do this summer. If I wasn't so allergic to mold, I'd be hiding at the bottom of my semi-walk in closet with my super furry mutt because even with the dampness, it's surprisingly cool in there. (Looks like I will be going to the hardware store this week for Damp Rid or some other moisture absorbing product for those hard to reach places the dehumidifier can't reach down here). But that's only one solution. It was hot and it was HUMID this weekend. And not only was my pain level through the roof, so was my joint swelling. The dehumidifer we have is decades old, an electricity sucker, extremely loud, and even though it does a so/so job of dehumidfying, it has a major downside: it emits serious heat. I looked online for stand alone air conditioners that don't have to be installed in windows and they aren't cheap. I'm talking average of $400 not cheap. But they're not just air conditioners, they're also dehumidifers (that don't have to be emptied--double bonus!) and they're relatively quiet. It's definitely a more sane idea than saving as much money as I can and staying in a motel all summer.
It's just money that I really don't have to spend on something I do need, even if it's for a few months out of the year. Add that to medical bills I have yet to receive, things that keep breaking around here (if you can think if it, it's either broken, or about to break), and my upcoming doctors appointments. I'm not new to tests by any means. It's just kind of scary in a way. Basically tomorrow, I get my lab results and X-ray results (radiation), then another round of questions, a quick physical, and at the very least a bone density scan. I know it's a relatively quick and very painless procedure, but it's more radiation exposure. I'm not sure how my doctor is going to do the gallium scan yet, as it takes several hours from the time I'm injected with radiation until I'm stuck into a tube and scanned for inflammation, tumors, and infection (i.e. MORE radiation). It's a bit nervewracking to think about. And a lot to absorb. It's not like I haven't had nuclear tests before, but this is different. It's one thing to know I'm sick, but to be tested this aggressively makes it feel real. And it's kind of unnerving.
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