Water

Water is the single most powerful and destructive force in nature.  It has the ability to seep through cracks and get into places the eye cannot even see.  It can take down entire buildings, level cities, and depending on the season, controls how well the crops we grow and eat.  Water also has a very light side.  It is used in Blessings in the form of holy water, used in showers and bath tubs to clean ourselves, and just being near a body of water: a lake, pond, sea, river, or ocean has a very calming effect.  That is part of why I have a 30 gallon fish tank in my bedroom.  Even with one fish, it has a very calming effect.  

    Another form of water comes from within us.  Over two thirds of the human body is water.  Among all of this water are tears.  Tears serve many purposes, from function, to an emotional release.  I will not get into the function of tears, how they keep our eyes moist, can clear them from debris, and other such functions.  The most commonly recognized of tears are those that come from the result of emotion.  Two weeks ago I cried on a Monday morning while curled up in bed with someone I love.  While there were a few snags and misfortunes, the weekend had been the most incredible I could ever remember having.  He went into a panic thinking that he had done something wrong.  I couldn't speak, but later explained it was just how overwhelmed I was that I had finally found somebody I felt safe with, someone I fit with, and someone who loved me as much as I loved him.  Then two days ago, the tears came for a different reason.  This "perfect man" I had met, trusted, and fallen hard for was leaving.  Just like that.  I still don't know what I did to push him away like that and loathe me so much to tear my heart and soul to shreds.  I almost feel like I'm going to wake up and find this was all a dream.   Emotionally released tears help do just that--relieve us of our burdening emotions.  They literally become an outlet.  So now on top of being physically ill, once again, I have been torn apart.  And I blame myself for letting it happen.  He still has and most likely always have what is left of my heart after having had it put back together so many times.  I just hope one day he remembers those feelings and returns.