As much as I try not to figure out why people do what they do, it has always been my curious obsession with the human race. Why do some people face problems in life head on, while others choose to bury their heads like ostriches? Why do some go out of their way to help others, regardless of the personal cost, while others seem to go out of their way to hurt those around them? Is it a problem with ignorance, fear, or is there literally something wrong in their brains that make them who and what they are and why they do what they do?
The past is not something to be ignored like it never happened nor is it something to dwell in, live in, and spend years trying to change it or relive it. I suppose it's easier for some to go back to what they know rather than face the unknown. Life doesn't come with a set of rules, regulations, and it certainly doesn't come with a future-telling crystal ball with an instruction manual. Some things blindside us, leaving us with that just kicked in the gut feeling, while other things leave us speechless because they're so amazingly wonderful.
It takes a special kind of cowardice to pull some of the stunts I've seen people pull in the recent past. It also takes a special kind of strength to stand up and face it. No one has all the answers, but sometimes it's pretty easy to tell who to avoid when looking for solutions. And sometimes there are no answers but to stand back and take the punches as they come. Plans are always a good thing, but because life is so unpredictable, the best course is to take things as they come.
I'm tired of feeling like I've been kicked in the gut at every turn. But I am grateful for those few in my life with whom I probably wouldn't be standing here today if it wasn't for them. Disappointment has got to be the worst feeling in the world. Just as with every other storm, this too shall pass.
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